good quote

" In my opinion, the great single need of the moment is that light-hearted superficial religionists be struck down with a vision of God high and lifted up, with His train filling the temple. The holy art of worship seems to have passed away like the Shekinah glory from the tabernacle. As a result, we are left to our own devices and forced to make up the lack of spontaneous worship by ...bringing in countless cheap and tawdry activities to hold the attention of the church people." ~ A.W. Tozer

Saturday, April 12, 2014

A New Favorite Folk Song: Black and White by: Cherry Holmes

This song has become one of my favorites and I wanted to share the lyrics because i think it has an awesome message in it. Enjoy!

Black and White

Oh, let me tell my story friend
That you might learn to stay away from sin
I took a life not mine to take
Imprisoned for this haunting dread mistake

My heart was harder than my soul
They sentenced me to life without parole
Where no one cares, we’re all the same
And I must wear this number for my name 

Chorus :
 Now life to me is black and white
I’ll wear these stripes until the day I die
But this ball and chain around my leg
 Won’t drag me down, won’t drag me down
When I am dead

 My mother prayed so hard for me
She did her time down on bended knees
But I was young and I had no fear
Her pleading voice still echoes in my ear

 Don’t let the beauty blind your eyes
This world is filled with discolored lies
For greener fields don’t sell your soul
You’ll think you’re rich with a pocket of fool’s gold


 I’d rather be in this dark cell
Than to be free and die and go to hell
God bless the day of my new birth
I don’t have to pay the price that I deserve 


And when I’m dead and take my flight
I’ll leave behind this world of black and white

Friday, February 21, 2014

Psalm 40

This Psalm has been my heart's cry and meditation for the last few days and I wanted to post it here. I hope the Lord uses it in your heart just as He has been using it in mine...

Psalm 40 (KJV)

1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
and he inclined unto me, and heard
my cry.
2 He brought me up also out of an
horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and
set my feet upon a rock, and established
my goings.
3 And he hath put a new song in
my mouth, even praise unto our God:
many shall see it, and fear, and shall
trust in the LORD.
4 Blessed is that man that maketh
the LORD his trust, and respecteth not
the proud, nor such as turn aside to
5 Many, O LORD my God, are thy
wonderful works which thou hast
done, and thy thoughts which are to
us-ward: they cannot be reckoned up
in order unto thee: if I would declare
and speak of them, they are more than
can be numbered.
6 Sacrifice and offering thou didst
not desire; mine ears hast thou
opened: burnt offering and sin offering
hast thou not required.
7 Then said I, Lo, I come: in the
volume of the book it is written
of me,
8 I delight to do thy will, O my
God: yea, thy law is within my heart.
9 I have preached righteousness in
the great congregation: lo, I have not
refrained my lips, O LORD, thou
10 I have not hid thy righteousness
within my heart; I have declared thy
faithfulness and thy salvation: I have
not concealed thy lovingkindness and
thy truth from the great congregation.
11 Withhold not thou thy tender
mercies from me, O LORD: let thy
loveingkindness and thy truth continually
preserve me.
12 For innumerable evils have
compassed me about: mine iniquities
have taken hold upon me, so that I am
not able to look up; they are more
than the hairs of mine head: therefore
my heart faileth me.
13 Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver
me: O LORD, make haste to help me.
14 Let them be ashamed and confounded
together that seek after my
soul to destroy it; let them be driven
backward and put to shame that
wish me evil.
15 Let them be desolate for a reward
of their shame that say unto me,
Aha, aha.
16 Let all those that seek thee rejoice
and be glad in thee: let such as
love thy salvation say continually,
The LORD be magnified.
17 But I am poor and needy; yet
the LORD thinketh upon me: thou art
my help and my deliverer; make no
tarrying, O my God.

Monday, February 10, 2014

Revamping my weight loss goals for Spring

ok people... since December of 2012, when i started working for DCI, I've been trying to lose weight and it started with a weight loss challenge at work. I was 192lbs. when i started... I'm currently at (gulp.... dont laugh) 170-172 lbs... I've just been trying to maintain through the winter because it's been hard to get out and hike or exercise with the cold weather. I'm just happy I haven't put the weight back on. But with Spring and warmer weather ahead I'm looking to revamp my weight loss goals. I still have around 37lbs. to lose to reach my goal range and I need some accountability partners or even some exercise partners... I love to hike and be outside. I plan to do some gardening this year.. ummm I'm not crazy about going to the gym I prefer to do "activities" as exercise i guess is the best way to describe it... but i just wanted to share because I thought it might help me to lose the weight if others knew about it..

I think what spurred this whole weight loss thing for me was in December 2012 I stepped on the scale and kept seeing it inching closer and closer to that 200 lbs. mark and thinking "NOOOOO!!! There is NO WAY I'm going to hit that 200 lbs mark! Not going to happen!" So, just like everything in life I began to pray about my weight loss. I didn't want something like that to hinder whatever the Lord might ask me to do in life and yeah, I admit I selfishly wanted to look  better and feel better about my weight too. 

 I also just want to say that I'm not judging other people by their weight. I'm not that shallow or vain. Everyone is built and made differently. God didn't intend for us to all look like what the world considers "beautiful" but I KNOW for sure that I'm not physically built to be 200 lbs. I'm not built to be 172lbs. It's just not healthy for me.

 I also think that part of our testimony for the Lord is being a good steward not just of the things that the Lord gives us but also in how we take care of this body that God has given us. Now that being said, Spiritual things are FAR MORE important that physical things and Spiritual things should always take precedence but that doesn't mean that we should completely ignore the physical things like how we take care of our bodies.  I also think that there should be a spiritual aspect to it as well. I'm not talking meditation or some weird hoccus poccus that the world comes up with, what I mean is making sure that you have you eyes set in the right direction and on the right things. When I was a teenager our youth director's wife made all the girls memorize 1 Corinthians 10:31 at camp one summer. That verse says "Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God."  That verse has made a difference in my life in so many ways and it can apply to so many different things, including health and weight loss. 
    For example, when I grab something to eat, i ask "Does this bring glory to God when I know that it isn't good for me to eat?" Or when I do indulge a little in something that I enjoy, like how i really like Mellow Yellow, I ask " Does this honor God or am i making an idol out of this thing because I've become so addicted to it that I think I NEED it?" "Has it become more important than my relationship with the Lord?" If I'm willing to scrape together pennies and go WAY out of my way to get Mellow Yellow but I miss a church service simply because I "didn't feel like going" then yeah, it's become an idol. That's what I'm talking about with having a Spiritual view to my weight loss and exercise. 
 With that in mind, it also affects my exercise; from what I do and what I wear to where I do it at. Which is also why I'm not so fond of Gyms. At a gym you run the risk of being exposed to things that don't honor the Lord, like people who are showing way too much skin and music that doesn't honor God and the possibility of running into someone who is there for lustful reasons. I prefer at home gyms if you like that kind of exercise. 
  But there's other things to consider as well. What kind of exercises are you doing? I have always like to do activities that have a physical aspect to them, like hiking, kayaking, camping, I've even done some rock climbing back in my college days. I love that kind of exercise because you're exercising without really thinking about exercising. You doing something that you enjoy and it's good for you too. But again, how I hike, how I'm dressed for hiking, who I hike with and where... I ask every time "would God be pleased with this? Am I doing this in a way that would honor Him?" I've always heard that if there is any question about the answer to those questions being "No" then you probably need to rethink it because it's better to be safe then sorry.
 I have also had to think about some of the exercises I like doing or am interested in trying. I like what's called "low-impact" exercises because they are not as hard on the joints or muscles. I feel relaxed and refreshed afterward. You're  not trying to do anything unnatural with your body. I like to do pilates, water aerobics, I've even looked into yoga and tai chi. All are great for exercise but some are kind of questionable, like yoga and Tai Chi. My personal conviction is that if you are going to do those for exercise then be very careful that you understand the cultural and religious background of what you're doing. It's one thing to do the exercise but when you start to dabble in the religion behind it then you are no longer honoring God with it. Also they have some humanistic ideals and even some mystic aspects which should be avoided. So that being said perhaps those are not the best exercises to look into for a Christian and I think it is something that should be prayed over. Ask the Lord to show you what He would have you do do. Ask Him for wisdom in setting your goals and planning your exercise and diet. 

Another part of my weight loss challenge is telling others and myself that I AM NOT ON A DIET, I am merely watching what I eat. Everything in moderation... Do I have the chocolate cake if I want it? Sure, a SMALL piece isn't going to hurt me so much and it isn't going to set me back in losing weight but 2 or 3 LARGE pieces are certainly going to hurt me and set me back. It turns me into a pig and I have to ask myself why do I need that much cake? I have a sweet tooth and I'm a muncher... If I'm not careful I'll munch on snacks all day long and not even eat meals. The problem with that is that I end up eating too many empty calories. To fix this I ask myself why I'm eating what I am eating when I'm eating it. Most of the time I found it was because I was bored. In that case I go out and find something to do.

 Well, I know I could keep going on and on but I've been sitting long enough. It's time to get up and get busy. I am looking for some accountability partners, someone who will ask "Have you exercised today?" and "What have you been eating?"  "Did you honor the Lord in what you ate and did today?" I'm also talking with my sisters and my friends about getting some exercies partners. I think my sisters are being a great help. One of my sisters and I are going to weight in tomorrow and go from there. YAY! 

I hope this has been interesting, God honoring and a help to anyone else dealing with the same challenges. I just felt like sharing with others... :-)

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

So MUCH has happened and I praise the Lord for every moment

WOW! I can't believe it has been so long since I have visited my blog. Sorry to all my readers but it has been such a busy year and a half. I looked at the date on my last blog and it was July 2012! That's so unbelievable. I guess I should try to catch you all up on just what has kept me away for so long.
  As I try to apply Colossians 1:10,( "That ye might walk worthy of the Lord unto all pleasing, being faithful in every good work, and increasing in the knowledge of God."), to my life in all areas, the Lord has worked in many ways and directed my path and has been faithfully good through it all.

December 2012 I began a new job as a Patient Care Technician for Dialysis Clinic Inc. It's been such an amazing adventure. It really is a ministry caring for each and every patient that comes in for treatment. Some days are Great, some days are ok, and some days are bad but overall I've come to really care for the ones I take care of each day. I'm not the best at what I do but I give it my best everyday. I just celebrated 1 year there this past December. Can't believe I've lasted this long! Praise the Lord!

In February 2013 I was blessed with a new vehicle that I desperately need. The Lord blessed me with a 2010 Honda CR-V and has continued to bless me by allowing me to make each payment every month and to actually pay a little more each month than the monthly amount. Also, the Lord has been so generous as to allow me to keep insurance on it as well. It's been a great little SUV/Car and the gas mileage has been great too! The Lord knew just what He was doing, as always.

In April of 2013 I was able to move out on my own in a small apartment not far from my family. Within walking distance really. I've really enjoyed decorating and planning and having my own space. I spent months praying over a place that would fit into my budget, that I also prayed over, and would be a place that would honor the Lord and provide peace and quiet and hospitality to all who entered. I wanted all who came here to be able to see how the Lord works in everything and to feel His presence here. I even knelt in prayer the first night I stayed here and prayed over this place. I really wanted it to be an extension of my witness and testimony for the Lord.
   I've felt that it is very important to be a good steward of what the Lord has provided so I have spent a great deal of time learning about homesteading and recycling and reusing things and I've been so happy to be able to grow a few veggies and make my own laundry detergent and learning how to cook all sorts of things.
  Now that's a topic I could spend a long while on.. cooking. Growing up I was never interested in learning to cook. Mind you I have always been able to cook in "need-be" situations, just don't expect 5 star restaurant kind of food. LOL But in living in my apartment I've been learning a lot in the kitchen. Most of the time since it's just me and my little dog frozen pizza, hamburger helper and quick meals are on the menu the most often but I've enjoyed learning to make things like spinach tarts, 100 different ways to fix chicken breasts, and explore every new cookbook I get my hands on. Recently I got some deer meat from my parents and I've LOVED finding out all I can make with venison. Tonight, in fact, it will be deer steaks and onions.  :-)

In August of 2013 I received my CCHT (certified clinical hemodialysis Technician) certification. I was so excited because I had to study really hard and the training for dialysis is really intense. I couldn't have done it without the Lord helping me and giving me great teachers and trainers with a lot of patients. I've learned so much and still have so much left to learn. It's challenging and I like to help others.

September marked another Homecoming at church and this coming September we will be celebrating 50 years in the Church's ministry reaching the community with the Gospel. Right now we are planning a 50 year Jubilee for 2014. We always have our revival during September and this past one was such a blessing. The Lord gave the preacher a special message each night. I believe the Lord worked in my heart as well as others.

OH! I almost forgot to catch you up on the ministry at church. That has been busy as well as we steadily work in reaching others with the Gospel until the Lord comes back. I'm still teaching the 3-5 year old Sunday School class every Sunday morning and I'm also a teacher for the younger age group in our youth ministry on wednesday nights. Unfortunately because of an eye infection I wont be able to attend tonight but this year has been especially exciting for me with the Wednesday night youth work. We've been doing a study on "Who is Jesus?" and we've been learning different attributes of Christ each night. I feel the Lord has really directed the lessons and He has given me some great and exciting ways of presenting Himself to the children. I've been able to use some great object lessons to explain some tough subjects like using a hard boiled egg to talk about Jesus as our Savior and then being able to present Salvation to them in a way that they understand, or using "Life" cereal to build a bridge to explaining how Jesus Christ is the Light and LIFE of the world. Just two weeks ago I used candles to show them how Jesus is our LIGHT. It's been so great and so much fun! I really hope and pray and believe that the Lord has used this to reach those kids in unforgettable ways. These kids need a lot of prayer though, most of them come on our bus ministry outreach from broken homes and don't really even know what real love is or what it means. They desperately need Christ in their hearts and lives.

Our bus outreach has been something too. It has come with its own set of challenges to try and keep the bus going. We have so many children that come on that bus and families too. There are two families in particular that come to mind as they are so faithful in attendance. They don't have much in the way of worldly possessions but they have riches untold in their relationships with the Lord. I've seen each member of one family saved in the time they have been coming and in the other family, the father has been saved but was away from the Lord and his two young children have been saved in the time they have been coming. Both children are in my Sunday School class and in the mid-week youth ministry. I've seen them grow as each week has passed.

I'm still the Church hostess though that doesn't require quite as much time and effort as the other things. I keep the Fellowship Hall stocked with plates, forks, paper towels, toilet paper, coffee, etc. That sort of thing... I also set up for church fellowships and i try to help with any church event that takes place in our Fellowship Hall. I really couldn't do that job without lots of help from our Pastor's Wife. She does so much and she is AWESOME! She has been a friend, a wise counsel, and a wonderful godly testimony.

I also do a lot with music in the church. I sing in the choir and do specials. I believe it's important to give every talent over to the Lord to be used for His glory. The Lord has allowed me to create a CD of hymns a couple years ago and I'm working on creating another one but it's been a challenge because there is so much planning and organizing and working with others in the church to get it done. I've had to remind myself that they have things going on in their lives too so I have to be patient. I'm still praying that if the Lord would have me to make this new CD of traditional hymns that He would make a way.

December 2013 brought with it my 1 year anniversary with Dialysis Clinic Inc. (DCI). As well as my first Christmas in my little apartment. I was so blessed by my family this Christmas, I can't begin to tell you how much I felt loved. My family has been so good to me. They helped me with getting all my furniture in my apartment. They spent hard earned money to be able to give me gifts to help me here like dishes and other furniture. This Christmas though my parents bought me a used washer and dryer and they even went so far as to get the dryer fixed when it didn't work AND helped me move it into my apartment. My sisters have given support and advice and tips for all sorts of things and have been so kind as to be supportive when I would need a listening ear.
  I had a lot of fun trying to decorate my little place on a VERY tight budget. I am so thankful for good friends and neighbors who gave me some of their own extra decorations so that I could make this first Christmas special. It was such a "hodge-podge" of decor that didn't match but I loved every piece for the warmth and love that came with it; from my little "charlie brown" Christmas tree to my strand of Christmas lights around the living room windows that only half of them worked. Hahaha! It was a Christmas that I will never forget though and it will make a story worth telling for years to come.

I'm looking forward to what the new year holds as I prayerfully make plans; like a veggie bed out in front of my apartment that I hope I can keep going all the way up to early winter as I've been learning about cold crops in my continuing study of homesteading. There will be new adventures in the world of Dialysis as I continue to learn the ins and outs of the clinic I work at and new patients to care for. The work of the ministries at Morning Star Baptist Church will keep going, Lord willing, and souls will come to know Jesus as their Savior. There will be children to come and go and I hope to be one of those teachers that they can look up to as a role model and as someone who really showed them not only that someone in this world cares about them but that God loves and cares about them too. There are still things in my own life that I am seeking the Lord in. I would like very much to be a wife and mother one day and, Lord willing, I would like very much for that to be sooner rather than later but God IS IN CONTROL and His time is best. Most of all I am praying to grow in my walk with the Lord more and more each day. I want to walk so closely to Him that when others look at me they don't see me but my Savior. I want to bare MUCH fruit for my Lord.

I hope you've enjoyed reading about the last year of my life. I will try very hard to keep you updated on all the Lord does in the coming year. I hope to share more bible studies with you and hope you will share with me as well. God bless and keep you!

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Holy Women Bible Study lesson #09- Esther, A Woman of Temperance

In order to profit from this lesson please carefully read chapters 1-7 of Esther before answering the questions.

1) Describe King Ahasuerus.

2) Describe Esther.

3) Do you believe there is a connection between her maturity in responding to wise councel and her fruit of temperance? Explain (Esther 2:10, 15, 20).

4) How does knowing the will of God (4:14) help one control one's actions?

5) In what ways did Esther model victory over self-gratification (4:11-17)?

6) How did she exemplify control over her tongue (5:1-8; 7:1-6)?

7) What actions did Esther take to ensure self-control (5:1-8; 7:1-6)?

8) What benefits came out of her victory?

9) how did her temperance help others?

10) Titus 2 used the example of refusing wince when setting forth temperance. Can you name other areas, besides wine, that might entangle a woman's life?

11) Why is such self-control a requirement for teaching others?

12) Explain how some things which are good in themselves can be bad by misuse (Proverbs 24:13; 25:16,27).

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Holy Women Bible Study lesson # 8- Speak with Kindness

Little member is what God calls the tongue, but great blessings and great evils flow therefrom.

1) The virtuous woman speaks with kindness (Proverbs 31:26).
  Discuss positive ways you can use your tongue from:
Psalms 34: 1-3            Proverbs 12:18
Proverbs 12:25          Proverbs 15:1
Proverbs 16:23-24

2) Give an example of someone who recently ministered to you with their speech. Explain why their words were so meaningful.

3) When it is impossible or impractical to overlook an offense, why is it best to talk directly to the party involved before discussing the matter with anyone else?
Proverbs 25:9-12                  Matthew 18:15
Luke 17:3-4

4) From the passages listed below, what is involved in being a wise reprover? 
Proverbs 9:8-9                    Proverbs 25:15
Galatians 6:1                      Ephesians 4:15
Colossians 4:6                    1 Samuel 25:23-25

5) Define flattery.

6) Why does someone flatter?

7) Why is it wrong according to 
Proverbs 12:2       Proverbs 12:17-19
Proverbs 26:28    Proverbs 29:5

8) Why does someone nag?

9) Describe the effects of nagging based on 
Proverbs 19:13              Proverbs 21:19
Proverbs 25:24

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Holy Women Bible Study Lesson #7- Miriam, an unrestrained tongue

It is important that the student read Numbers 12: 1-15 at least three times before answering the questions.

1) How did Miriam want others to see herself and Aaron?

2) What lay at the root of Miriam's sin?

3) What statement in verse 2 is so often forgotten by those who gossip?

4) How did God view Moses (verses 3-9)?

5) How did God view the sin of Miriam (verses 9-14; Proverbs 6: 16-19; 1 Timothy 5:19-20)?

6) Why does God consider gossiping such a serious sin?

7) Comment upon Proverbs 11:9, Proverbs 16:28, Proverbs 17:9, Proverbs 17:20, Proverbs 26: 20-23

8) Can you think of a situation where you have been personally hurt by gossip?

9) Can you think of a situation where you have hurt another with gossip?

10) Did you learn anything from the two experiences? Explain.

11) What effect did Miriam's sin have on the others (verse 15)?

12) How can you help stop gossip according to Proverbs 14:15, Proverbs 15:28, Proverbs 17: 27-28, Proverbs 18:13, James 3:2-18.

13) How does giving ear to gossip make one a partaker of the evil deed?

Holy Women Bible Study lesson # 6- Mary and Martha, Cumbered vs. Contented

Look over Luke 10: 38-42 at least three times before answering the questions.

1) in the passage at hand two sisters desire to please Jesus. Why is Mary praised?

2) Why is Martha rebuked?

3) How might Martha have been different if she had taken time to listen to Jesus before she served?

4) What charge did Martha make against Jesus in verse 40?

5) Have you ever felt this way under the pressures of daily work? Explain.

6) What charge did Martha make against Mary in verse 40?

7) Discuss how our self-love leads us into bad attitudes toward others?

8) What does verse 40 teach about the prayers of one whose perspective is faulty?

9) define cumbered 

10) Are you ever in this condition? Why?

11) How can you serve more like Mary?

12) How does Jesus describe true servitude in Mark 10: 42-45?

13) Relate this description to the passages in Titus and Proverbs 31 from earlier lessons.

14) Can you think of a situation in your life where effective service came after spiritual worship?